Monday 6 August 2007
Bank Holiday Monday = THEN
I had to wake Cathal at 9am and Emma was away on a
sleepover. We went up to the Whitewater and there were very few shops open. I
was delighted to be doing something so normal and boring.
I felt very sick all of a sudden in the centre and I had to
make a dash to the toilet. It was not good. I felt weak and shaky.
I am still not eating but I tried a
drink of smoothie which was okay for about three sips and then I felt sick.
It is very hard to keep on top of things in the house. I was
talking to my mum in law and she was horrified that I am on my own and intends
to come up. I was so relieved.
I dozed on the couch while Cathal was having his nap this
afternoon. I am so tired and weak and useless!
The cat is pregnant again and about to drop any day. Another
thing which I failed to attend to
due to my sickness. This could be a whole litter of kittens this time instead of the one she had in May. Oh dear.
Eating is still not great and I just need courage to try. I
am so scared of being as sick as I was in hospital that I am afraid to try. I
am getting weaker I think and afraid they will readmit me to Tallaght when they
see me.
I am amazed that I am not teary and weepy. Maybe I have no
spare fluids?
I went for a nap at the same time as Cathal went for his
nap.
Despite everything that is going on with me - it is so great to be home.
Monday 6 August 2012 = NOW
People who know me will understand why feeling so weak and helpless was so frustrating for me. All my life I have been the doer, the one with loads of energy, the one who stays up late and is still up early the next morning. This time five year's ago I could not walk up the stairs. I could not stand for very long without feeling tired and I could not do any kind of housework worth talking about.
It was very hard to feel so useless.
Today, despite all the housework which awaits me, I am glad to have the energy to do it [really?]. LOL. Well okay, if I could just avoid the ironing then that would be great.
B xx