Saturday 4 August 2007 = THEN
Everyone left me today. My sis went to Belturbet and Mam
went with her.
I guess it has been hard for people who have been helping out to be away from their own places and comforts. I guess I am on my own.
Bryan went off and bought a wooden bench for under the porch
out the front. I am still very weak. I sat out on it for a while today watching Emma and Cathal. I can't join in like I used to be able to - no going on the pogo stick for me for a while!
I
was wrapped up in a big blanket with my bandana on my head as I am still very
bald. My eyes are very sensitive to the light as they are still very red and
sore. I must look strange to passers by, but I am alive and that is all that matters.
We had a quiet day. I am not up for much. They don't mind though as I am home and in a way it is nice for the four of us to be back together.
We watched Jaws 2 and in the middle of it I got a terrible
cramp in my stomach and I went out the front for some fresh air. Of course I ended up
throwing up. It happened so quickly.
I am not sure how I am going to cope with the kids once
Monday comes. I still can’t look at food or prepare it.
I am surviving on three tea spoons of
apple flavoured yoghurt a day. I just can’t eat anything else. There is a
psychological battle now to will myself to eat. It is very hard.
Fell asleep before the end of Jaws 2. I guess they get the shark.
It is freaky to read back on what I was eating and living on - 3 teaspoons of yoghurt a day. I thankfully do not have that problem now. It is a horrible feeling to not be able to eat, or look at food. At that time just a look at raw meat was enough to make me gag. The thoughts of handling it and having to cook it, made me really ill.
I went from a size 20 in 2006/early 2007 to a size 8 after the transplant. I lost six dress sizes. I went down to about eight stone. My bones stuck out everywhere and I had no padding on my bottom which made sitting on any kind of a wooden chair, very painful. It is not a diet I would recommend.
B
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